Decision ...

 Out of Syllabus 18

"Oh! Mighty Warrior, here you are with a choice. You can turn and go back to the comfy bed at home, the world will always be the same. Or else you can take the dangerous, thorny, uncomfortable path forward and the world will never be the same"

All through my life I had taken decisions instantaneously, without looking at the consequences. Some times they were successful. Sometimes they where a huge flop. Sometimes i wished i never made that decision. Some i wished i could change the decision i took. But all in all when i look back to them, well who cares if i made mistakes. They made me realize that i was wrong. They made me tougher. They made me, myself. And they gave me pain. Still I say, tomorrow also i will make decisions. Let it be wrong. Let it be a mistake, but still i will do it. Because. later on , i must not regret that i haven't done anything so far. At some point of time, when some one asks me what have i done so far, i could say that I have done a hell lot of mistakes in my life. 

So here I am, first time in my life, at a point of taking a decision which may affect my life forever, thinking a lot whether i should take it or not. Decision which have been pondering me for couple of years. Which may change the massive change i had before. But still I don't know whether i am taking right or wrong decision. Heart says I am wrong and brain says I am right. This dilemma. This weakness, this confusion, makes me fear. It cripples and humbles me. I really don't know. May be time, healer of all wounds, will help me to make it.

For the time being I am signing off.

Without Wax

MASOCHIST, reporting from hell.