JOB HUNT...

എഞ്ചിനീറിംഗ്‌ പഠികുന്ന കാലത്തു നന്നായി തന്നെ ഉഴപ്പിയതു കൊണ്ടു കോളേജ്‌ കഴിഞ്ഞു പുറത്തിറങ്ങുമ്പൊള്‍ കൈയില്‍ ജോലിയും കൂലിയും ഒന്നും ഉണ്ടായിരുന്നില്ല. അപ്പൊഴാണു ബാംഗ്ളൂരില്‍ വന്നാല്‍ ജോലി എന്തായാലും കിട്ടും എന്നു ഫ്രണ്ട്സ്‌ പറഞ്ഞതു. അങ്ങനെയാണ്ണു ജോലിയും തപ്പി ബാംഗ്ളൂറ്‍ നഗരത്തില്‍ ചെന്നെതിയതു. പക്ഷെ പാപി ചെന്ന ഇടം പാതാളം എന്നതു പൊലെ ഞാന്‍ ചെന്നപൊള്‍ ഒരു ഇണ്റ്റര്‍വ്യൂ പൊലും അവിടെ നടകുന്നുണ്ടായിരുന്നില്ല. കഷ്ടകാലം എന്നല്ലാതെ എന്ത പറയുക. അങ്ങനെ അലഞ്ഞു തിരിഞ്ഞു കൈയില്‍ ഉള്ള കാശ്‌ മൊത്തം തീര്‍ന്നു നില്‍കുന്ന സമയം. ചെലവു കുറക്കാന്‍ പട്ടിണി കിടക്കുക മാത്രമാണു വഴി. പട്ടിണി കിടന്നു സീറോ സൈസ്‌ ആയിരുന്ന ഞാന്‍ -സൈസിലെക്കു എത്തി. അങ്ങനെ ജൊലിയും തപ്പിയിറങ്ങിയ ഒരു ദിവസം, രാവിലെ പച്ചവെള്ളം മാത്രമേ അകത്ത്‌ ചെന്നുള്ളു. വിശപ്പും ദാഹവും കൊണ്ട്‌ കണ്ണില്‍ ഇരിട്ടു കേറി തുടങ്ങിയിരുന്നു. കൈയില്‍ ൫ പൈസയില്ല, അങ്ങനെ ഫോറം മാളില്‍ കയറി നമ്മുടെ സ്തിരം പരിപാടിയായ പെണ്‍പിളേരെ വായനോക്കി കുടലു നിറയ്ക്കാം എന്നു വിചാരിച്ച്‌ നേരേ അവിടേക്ക്‌ വെച്ച്പിടിപ്പിച്ചു. Mc Donaldഇലും Transitഇലും പെണ്‍പിള്ളേര്‍ Pizzaയും Noodlesഉം വെട്ടിവിഴുങ്ങുനതു കണ്ട്‌ വിശപ്പ്‌ അധികമായെങ്ങിലും അവരുടെ അര്‍ധനഗ്നമേനി മനസ്സ്‌ നിറച്ചു. കണ്ണുകള്‍ക്‌ കുളിര്‍മയേകി. ഈശ്വരാ എന്നാണാവോ ഞാന്‍ ഇതൊക്കെ തിന്ന്‌ വിശപ്പടക്കുന്നത്‌. ഹ്മ്‌ ഒരു നാള്‍ വരും അങ്ങനെ മനസ്സില്‍ കരുതി പുറത്തിരങ്ങിയപ്പൊള്‍ വിശപ്പ്‌ വീണ്ടും അധികമായി. നേരേ ബസ്സ്‌ സ്റ്റൊപിലെക്കു നടന്നു. ബസ്സ്‌ സ്റ്റൊപിണ്റ്റെ അരികില്‍ ഒരു കരിംബ്‌ ജ്വുസ്‌ കട. അതിനു മുന്നില്‍ അശ്വാസമയി ഒരു ബോര്‍ഡ്‌ "Sugarcane juice- 5Rs" കീശയില്‍ കൈയിട്ടു തപ്പി നോക്കിയപോള്‍ ബസ്സ്‌ ഇനുള്ള ൬ രൂപയുണ്ടു. അതുകൊണ്ടു ഒരു കരിംബ്‌ ജ്വുസ്‌ വാങ്ങി കുടിചു വിശപ്പിനു താല്‍കാലിക ശമനം നല്‍കി. ഇനി റൂമ്മില്‍ എത്തുക. വേറെ മാര്‍ഗ്ഗമൊനുമില്ല, നീട്ടി വല്ലിച്ച്‌ നടന്നു, എതായലും ഒരു കാര്യം, പണ്ടു അച്ചന്‍ എന്നൊടു പറഞ്ഞതു ധൈര്യമായി എനിക്കിനി എണ്റ്റെ മക്കളൊടു പറയാം. "ഞാന്‍ ചെറുപ്പത്തില്‍ പട്ടിണി കിടന്നതു കൊണ്ടാണു നീയൊക്കെ ഇന്നു വെട്ടി വിഴുങ്ങുനതു"...

White VIP Frenchie...

This is about one of the most funniest moment in my life.  There are situations in which you think you are screwed up, which can be easily escaped by sheer courage and sense of humor. This guy showed absolute courage and used his sense of humor at the right time and escaped the punishment. This happened when I was in +1. As I told earlier I was in hostel at Sree Gokulam Public school Vadakara. We got very strict routine and very strict warden – Hari Narayanan Sir. It was like jail. Only difference was in jail they work, here we study. There were lots of rules to be maintained. One of the rule was that all boys must have 6 underwear’s at the least. I don’t know what kind of rule that was. Another rule was to switch off lights and go to bed at 10. We had dormitory system with 60 in single room and 2 entrances. It was eve of midterm exam. Almost all was in bed. But some from commerce was enjoying the night out. One among them, let us call him X, was on his famous white VIP underwear and was dancing around. Others were laughing at his actions. Suddenly someone told warden is coming, escape. Mr X, crawling on his knees went to the door and peeped out. Well he went straight to warden. At night, in white underwear, on his knees, he was caught red handed by warden. Well he did the most amazing thing which no one else would have done under that circumstance to our strict warden. He just caught his legs and told “SIR, IT IS MIDTERM EXAM TOMORROW. I NEED YOUR BLESSINGS. PLEASE BLESS ME.” Even the warden laughed his head out at this. He did nothing and went back. Imagine that situation, who the hell will act like that. But his courageous little funny act saved him. We used to laugh out remembering it.

The Mighty MH....

MH- It stands like a fort on the top of hill facing the whole campus. Girls say its Dracula’s Fort. May be they were jealous to say like that. But for us it was heaven. The walls of MH were our freedom. Freedom to eternal infinity. Well that’s  not the point I want to say. MH stands for Men’s Hostel. But what if a lady enters the MH? Thunderstorm right! Well literally that happened.

Campus politics and fights was one of the popular identity of LBS along with Mallyaji’s ‘Amruthu’.. And it may sometimes get nasty. One such fight broke out. An action committee of all HOD’s was formed, to conduct raid in Boys hostel. One of the HOD was a lady staff. She too came for the raid. We were all excited when we heard about the raid. Raid- like if they are going to find anything from the hostel. There was unusual chattering and clattering around. It was somewhere in the beginning of summer and sky was  crystal clear. The HOD’s raided the hostel. But as usual they couldn’t find out anything. Ah! except an iron rod which was used to clear the blocks in toilet (Trust me, toilets in MH are famous for pouring things out, rather than to take away things, when we pour water)!!! They also scared the assistant in mess thinking he was student. Well when the Lady HOD along with other HOD’s reached the terrace of mighty MH… the sky darkened. Clouds appeared. Wind started blowing. And it was fierce one. Mind, it was in summer. Well a lady entering MH is unnatural. May be that’s why nature also went berserk. Wind and dust was around us. But we were excited. All shouted.  Saying that even nature was furious about a lady entering the MH. Well we got a pet dog called Dhanumon in Mh. I guess even he didn’t like the HOD’s entering his & our privacy. It was one of the funniest moment when Dhanumon chased the Hod’s barking out. Actually he was expressing our view towards the HOD’s. Thank God he was trained well. The HOD’s went away. We watched them walking away, with our heads held high and the usual ‘puchality’ on our face. In the dust and wind and drizzle, we danced and shouted and enjoyed like hell from our heaven- MH!!!!

About me...

Out of Syllabus 9

This is the world of Social Networking. Orkut, Facebook, Twitter etc etc etc…. And in all these network, one thing is common. “About me” And that is when I thought hard about me. I have seen so many comments like I am cool guy, I am smart guy, I lov to make frnds, I wanna date girls- the common crap in others profile. Well when I thought deep these were not the things which came to my mind. I definitely don’t know about me. Or rather say it is not static for me. I change. By years or months or even minutes. I asked my friends “about me” Many told many replies. “You are so good”. “I don’t know.” “I don’t know you, to reply to this”. “You are an idiot, to ask such questions” Well I am not satisfied. May be this was also a question like “what is the purpose of our life”. May be we have to live through to find it out…..
 As far as I know- I am ‘Spoiled’ for my father, ‘Hope’ for my mother and ‘Frustration’ for my sister. I am a bit of Masochist, a bit of Sadist, a bit of Insomniac, bit of wisdom, a bit of blunder, bit of depressed. I am arrogant, rude and I don’t care others. I am not the good guy. I am frustrated guy looking to relieve from my frustration. As every coin have two parts, may be me too have the otherside, the so called positive side. But certainly that side is in the shadows. But I don’t care that I am bad. Something is Good, because some other thing is ‘Bad’. And I like to be what I am now, throughout……

Depression...

Out of Syllabus 8
Depression – Because I am weak.
Depression - Because I fear.
Depression – I am Useless.
Depression – I am frustrated.
Depression – I don’t care anything.
Depression – I am failing exams.
Depression – I lost my LOVE.
Depression – No one understands me.
Depression – I am lonely.
Depression – I am insomniac.
Depression – I don’t know to express my love to others.
Depression – I don’t care what I talk.
Depression – I don’t care I hurt others.
Depression – I don’t care others feelings.
Depression – My –ve side is prominent.
Depression – I don’t have anything to project as my +ve side.
Depression – My college days are over.
Depression- I dont have my friends around.
Depression – I am masochist, but I can’t torture myself.
Depression – I am spoiling myself.
Depression – I am lost.
Depression – I don’t have a job.
Depression – I don’t have income.
Depression – I am depressed.
Depression – There is no cure.

Depression – Only one way to end this. DEATH and I can’t do it.